After Orchestra
The night bus home with beers in me
Orchestra ended early. I thought it would last until forever or ten o'clock whichever came first. Spelling is difficult right now. No food and beer is an unwise combination when fatigued. But I will do my best. Orchestra ended early. We're playing four pieces. At first I hated them, but now I like them. I play in the second violins at the back. All we are is punctuation. I hate punctuation. Except for endings or periods. I like that kind of punctuation. I decided to attack this new year with vigor with zest with determination. I'm dumb. I'm so far behind everyone else in the school it's ridiculous. You know what I think I'll quit just for fun. See what would happen. Because at the end of the day I wouldn't be talked out of it I wouldn't be treated as some prodigy. Because I'm not, you know that? I'm insignifigint. Spelling is hard right now. Beers and no food. I'm looking out the window on the bus and I wish I could jump out just to see what would happen. A friend lent me some music. I quite like it. So today in orchestra. Ah what to tell. I suppose I could tell you about the people there yes that's a good plan the people there. Some of them are nice but some from before is gone. Is gone? Punctuation. I remember that. Now. Watching two lovers on the bus oh to be a lover. I would love to be a lover. I saw a nice girl again she's quite nice. Strange. I like strange I don't know why. Orchestra. Focus, douchebag. Orchestra is difficult. I can't read fast, you know. It's very difficult. They play so fast, the conductor says things and I can't understand so I play what I think I should play but it ends up as a mess because I don't know the music. I should listen to the music but I'd rather walk and talk about movies with the nice girl I saw today. Strange isn't it. It's a love but a hate. Why. I don't know. I walked to the bus loop and on the way I saw my friends the quartet. Or what will be the quartet I'm not sure. They said hey so I walked with them then they said why are you walking with us don't you need to take the bus so I said goodnight as I wasn't wanted they called out but I decided to say goodnight three more times at each response. I don't like the girl he was with John. I don't. She's cocky. Can't I be better than someone just once. No I can't. Stupid. So I decided to stop and drink beer instead of catching a bus. I think I drank past two buses but I'm not sure. There weren't many people in the bar. I saw a bouncer holidng a chain and snapping it and I hoped he would kick people out so I wouldn't have to concentrate on the music in the room. Bars always always always always play horrible music didn't you know. I spilt canadian on my violin case that I had with me from orchestra with the violin inside too so I had to ask the bartender for a cloth to wipe it off. I think he thought I was strange. I can't blame him so does everyone in the orchestra. Why am I out of it them. I walked to the bus. There were some people by the BeeLine but I didn't say hi to them even though I knew them because they were from the orchestra and I didnt' want to talk to them. I'm tired of being thought of as stupid you know. Almost wrote a question mark there it's tempting. Conventions are tempting. I should conform shouldn't I?
Orchestra ended early. I thought it would last until forever or ten o'clock whichever came first. Spelling is difficult right now. No food and beer is an unwise combination when fatigued. But I will do my best. Orchestra ended early. We're playing four pieces. At first I hated them, but now I like them. I play in the second violins at the back. All we are is punctuation. I hate punctuation. Except for endings or periods. I like that kind of punctuation. I decided to attack this new year with vigor with zest with determination. I'm dumb. I'm so far behind everyone else in the school it's ridiculous. You know what I think I'll quit just for fun. See what would happen. Because at the end of the day I wouldn't be talked out of it I wouldn't be treated as some prodigy. Because I'm not, you know that? I'm insignifigint. Spelling is hard right now. Beers and no food. I'm looking out the window on the bus and I wish I could jump out just to see what would happen. A friend lent me some music. I quite like it. So today in orchestra. Ah what to tell. I suppose I could tell you about the people there yes that's a good plan the people there. Some of them are nice but some from before is gone. Is gone? Punctuation. I remember that. Now. Watching two lovers on the bus oh to be a lover. I would love to be a lover. I saw a nice girl again she's quite nice. Strange. I like strange I don't know why. Orchestra. Focus, douchebag. Orchestra is difficult. I can't read fast, you know. It's very difficult. They play so fast, the conductor says things and I can't understand so I play what I think I should play but it ends up as a mess because I don't know the music. I should listen to the music but I'd rather walk and talk about movies with the nice girl I saw today. Strange isn't it. It's a love but a hate. Why. I don't know. I walked to the bus loop and on the way I saw my friends the quartet. Or what will be the quartet I'm not sure. They said hey so I walked with them then they said why are you walking with us don't you need to take the bus so I said goodnight as I wasn't wanted they called out but I decided to say goodnight three more times at each response. I don't like the girl he was with John. I don't. She's cocky. Can't I be better than someone just once. No I can't. Stupid. So I decided to stop and drink beer instead of catching a bus. I think I drank past two buses but I'm not sure. There weren't many people in the bar. I saw a bouncer holidng a chain and snapping it and I hoped he would kick people out so I wouldn't have to concentrate on the music in the room. Bars always always always always play horrible music didn't you know. I spilt canadian on my violin case that I had with me from orchestra with the violin inside too so I had to ask the bartender for a cloth to wipe it off. I think he thought I was strange. I can't blame him so does everyone in the orchestra. Why am I out of it them. I walked to the bus. There were some people by the BeeLine but I didn't say hi to them even though I knew them because they were from the orchestra and I didnt' want to talk to them. I'm tired of being thought of as stupid you know. Almost wrote a question mark there it's tempting. Conventions are tempting. I should conform shouldn't I?
posted by Kahloke | 12:04 AM
2 Comments:
The music in my head that accompanied my reading this was Mozart violin concerto #3 (yes, the one you're playing) mvt. III the andante section (sans pick up note to the allegretto) and particularly the harmonics, though not for the whimsy that they can undoubtedly add to the piece.
That is my commentary for you on this entry.
It is time for another post, I think. I know you have enough troubled thoughts to put to paper (computer)?
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