Y'know, I'm really pissed by this. I grant you, it's selfish of me to bear a grudge against a certain individual, but...
People INVARIABLY side with their original friends. The friends they made first. Even if that person did something to someone else that they became friends with later on... they'll still stick up for them.
At what point is behaviour inexcusable? At what point to friends stand up and say: "No, what you did was wrong." At what point is one held accountable for their actions? I speak not of justice so much as I speak of honour, and of respect. When does the fallout come? Why is it that the duplicitious always carry on, without remorse or consequence to their actions? They're thought no less of by their friends. And yet, their behaviour has hurt someone.
Where is the logic in this? Why do I have to hurt for nothing, and yet individuals who have been a primary cause of my grief walk freely, without a blip on their concience? A blip. A single blip. Fallout. Some kind of acknowledgement. Maybe even *gasp!*... consequences? You mean that... if someone did something, they'd have to fess up to it? Be honest?
You folks left me out to dry. I can count on one hand the number of people who cared.
Oh well. First f riends come, well... first. Don't they?
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This is an excerpt from my blog, dated September 6th, 2004.
"I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to potentially harm another. And yet, were I not to execute the solution w hich has presented itself, I could very well ultimately end up hurting individuals in that eventuality.
Fuck. That's the best word to describe how I feel right now. To quote Robin Williams, in all his infinite wisdom: "Fuck this shit".
I'm tired.
I know where my feelings lie. That is what hurts the most. Not knowing what I want, bu t that in order to allow myself to feel what I feel, it would become a selfish act, as it would involve the harming of another, albeit emotionally.
I can't do this. I just can't... I'm tired. I'm also confused. Not about how I feel, but how I should behave."
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http://musicsite.schule.at/G_dateien/themen/Epochen_MG/audio/moderne/Ligeti-%20Lux%20aeterna%20(2001-%20A%20Space%20Odyssey).mp3
-"L ux Aeterna", György Ligeti -1953…
People INVARIABLY side with their original friends. The friends they made first. Even if that person did something to someone else that they became friends with later on... they'll still stick up for them.
At what point is behaviour inexcusable? At what point to friends stand up and say: "No, what you did was wrong." At what point is one held accountable for their actions? I speak not of justice so much as I speak of honour, and of respect. When does the fallout come? Why is it that the duplicitious always carry on, without remorse or consequence to their actions? They're thought no less of by their friends. And yet, their behaviour has hurt someone.
Where is the logic in this? Why do I have to hurt for nothing, and yet individuals who have been a primary cause of my grief walk freely, without a blip on their concience? A blip. A single blip. Fallout. Some kind of acknowledgement. Maybe even *gasp!*... consequences? You mean that... if someone did something, they'd have to fess up to it? Be honest?
You folks left me out to dry. I can count on one hand the number of people who cared.
Oh well. First f riends come, well... first. Don't they?
---------------------------------
This is an excerpt from my blog, dated September 6th, 2004.
"I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to potentially harm another. And yet, were I not to execute the solution w hich has presented itself, I could very well ultimately end up hurting individuals in that eventuality.
Fuck. That's the best word to describe how I feel right now. To quote Robin Williams, in all his infinite wisdom: "Fuck this shit".
I'm tired.
I know where my feelings lie. That is what hurts the most. Not knowing what I want, bu t that in order to allow myself to feel what I feel, it would become a selfish act, as it would involve the harming of another, albeit emotionally.
I can't do this. I just can't... I'm tired. I'm also confused. Not about how I feel, but how I should behave."
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http://musicsite.schule.at/G_dateien/themen/Epochen_MG/audio/moderne/Ligeti-%20Lux%20aeterna%20(2001-%20A%20Space%20Odyssey).mp3
-"L ux Aeterna", György Ligeti -1953…
posted by Kahloke | 11:18 PM
3 Comments:
I'm here too. I'm sure you'll do whatever's the right thing to do.
You know what Llowyn old buddy? I'm not going to do the trendy thing and tlak about how much i'm here for you, and that I care for you. Because if you dont know that already... I dont know. it seems ridiculous to keep trying to convince you that we're friends! I just wish you would realize that instead of saying how much I sided with Barbara. Okay, Barb, if you read this,it may hurt you, and I'm sorry in advance... But I always believed Llowyn was in the right. If I was him, I would have broken up with you. That doesnt make us any less friends. And it shouldnt make me and Llowyn any less friends either.
And im not sorry if this made you mad Llowyn, because you have to believe that I'm your friend, because if you dont... then why do people bother being friends?
No, Brianna, that didn't hurt me because it's true. I was the one who did something wrong, and deserved whatever I might have gotten.
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